I went to school with this guy

When my mom and I moved to Medina, we lived in a duplex on Howard St. Behind our house, facing Jackson St., lived Steve Cepec. His family was a disaster. I don't think I ever saw his dad sober, or not shouting at something. His mother was passive, aggressive, and mean.

Last spring, my mom called me and said, "One of your classmates is accused of murder."

"Is it Cepec?" I asked.

It was.

Steven Aaron Cepec is up for murder charges that could bring him the death penalty. He apparently killed his 73-year-old neighbor over a debt, and was caught fleeing the scene. He attempted to commit suicide in jail by swallowing screws. That failure cost the county a quarter million in medical bills.

He was on parole at the time of the murder. He'd served some years for burglary. And I knew when we graduated that he would come to a bad end. I'm kind of surprised that it took this long.

I always sort of liked Steve. Didn't trust him - my mom caught him stealing from our garage once. He tried to be a bully, but didn't seem to have the heart or the courage to do it right. Once, he hit me in the arm at recess. I wasn't a tough guy, and maybe it wasn't his best effort, but I was stunned that it didn't hurt all that much. I laughed. Steve never hit me again.

Steve was a good guy to have around when the neighborhood started the annual buckeye wars. Buckeyes falling from the trees make good weapons - we never were able to determine whether the small, hard smooth naked buckeyes or the spiky but soft buckeyes still in the husk hurt more. Steve had a good arm and a good eye.

In sixth grade, I sat next to some weird fruit-bearing plant that Mrs. Buckloh had in her room. Its small red berries were bitter and foul smelling. One day, Steve asked me to give him some. I looked at him, silently asking, "What happens to me if I give them to you?" He pointed at the seat behind him, occupied by the sleeping bulk of Richard Martin.

Richard was the living embodiment of every stereotype of West Virginia you've ever heard of, plus a few you haven't. It seemed the only word he knew was, "Quee-it." His lawn was mostly dirt because his dad would pay him $10 every time he mowed it, no matter how often he did, or how little the lawn needed it. When we asked him if he was a homo sapiens, he always replied, "No I never!"

Richard was sleeping in his desk, head slack back, mouth open, a thin weezy sort of snore drifting out. I gave Cepec a handful of berries. Cepec aimed, while teacher droned on in the background. The first berry bounced off Richard's forehead. He stirred, slightly.

The second berry bounced off his chin. Bracketed! The third berry hit the corner of his mouth and rolled off the side. But the fourth berry, nothing but net. I think it went straight down his throat. Richard coughed, explosively. The berry hit some girl in the face. Richard fell off his desk, arms flailing as he screamed, "Cepec, Quee-it!"

It was one of the better days in sixth grade.

At the time, my mom was one of four college graduate women working at the bakery at the local grocery store. Mom told me once that Steve came in one day, back to the bakery in the back. He said hi, grabbed a quarter donut from the sample plate. Mom said he paused, and said - matter of factly, maybe a bit sadly, "Your boy's really smart. Isn't he."

Mom said thank you, and he left.

Shortly after that, mom got a better paying gig working for the state gov, and we got a house in a different neighborhood. I didn't see as much of Steve.

I think Steve was not destined by fate to be a murderer. Some people clearly are. He was weak of will, but so am I a lot of the time. He wasn't terribly bright, but then so are a lot of people. His parents were fucked up, but so are many others. Had he been raised better, he might have done alright.

But that didn't happen. And Frank Munz is dead.

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QotD

From Zero Hedge:

Like most economists, the Fed and its chairman mistake their manipulation of money for control of the economy. You and I are the economy and it is quite apparent that the Fed has very little "control" over us. If they could control us, then their policies would have worked and they wouldn't keep experimenting on us with radical policies like quantitative easing and ZIRP.

Money, lest we forget, it just a medium of exchange. It does other things as well (store of value, indicator of the relative cost of things), but its primary function and the reason money was invented is to allow us to easily facilitate exchanges of goods and services. The economy is what we do everyday when we work, buy, sell, and save. Money is just a tool we use. When the Fed manipulates our money what is does is upset our ability to plan about the future. We have one set of perceptions about what money is and then the Fed distorts those perceptions and we end up making bad choices and bad plans. It results in the boom-bust business cycles we have and price inflation or price deflation.

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Rocket Jones gives it a name

My home town

Actually, things aren't so bad. Except for some soreness in the back from giving the Dad a hand with moving, things are verging on decent.

As Foseti mentioned, we had a little reactionary gabfest on Friday. Along with his observations, I'd add that reactionaries seem to be rather tall. It's unusual that I meet people taller than me, and Foseti is just fricken' huge. Wiry, though. Odd that sometimes when you meet for the first time a person you've never seen, they are almost exactly the way you pictured them. Except for the extra 6-8 inches, Foseti is just how I thought he'd look.

It is refreshing to talk to someone who not only doesn't freak out when I say what I think (my friend Christian is very kind, and doesn't freak out) but actually agrees, or even is more hardcore on the point than I am. The reactionary is decidedly outside the mainstream. And the monkeybrains part of your being just shrieks inside you when you are disagreeing with everyone. Seeing that there is someone who actually exists - not just words on the screen - and agrees with you is very calming.

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More thoughts

Devin's Hackertopia idea has got me thinking.

I think the biggest problem would be critical mass. If you don't get a sufficiency of smart, interesting people to move there; smart, interesting people won't move there. How do you bootstrap the process? Rather than planning a large community - start with the village and grow up from there.

If one could purchase a 160 acre plot in the adjacent to the middle of nowhere, it wouldn't cost that much. For example, this place:

Is located in Monroe County, WV, near I-64 and I-81, near the Virginia border. It costs $350k. Not an unreasonable sum, all things considered. A moderate amount of effort could produce a roughed out town square, a home, and the first building of the Hackiversity. Build a nice stone structure, fully wired, and set it up as a hacker space, and you might be able to get it started. Over time, the founders could sell plots out of the original 160 acres - reserving some for the university and some for the public square - to finance public works and to purchase nearby land for expansion.

New residents could buy into the municipal corporation, or not; buy land, or rent. Those who bought shares would have a hand in the governance as shareholders, and would share in the profits, if any.

If the university made a name for itself, the city could grow pretty rapidly.

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Hackertopia

Devin Finbarr has an excellent post up; Hackertopia: Creating a City as a Startup. This is not surprising. What's interesting is that Hackertopia is a more or less concrete idea for instantiating some reactionary/formalist ideas in the real world.

I like the idea. I think that if it could be created, it would be a nice place to live. The biggest problem I see with the proposal is that while the founders might be able to get out from under some state regulation and taxes, they're not going to be able to escape the fed. And while state regulations and taxes can be add to the burden of starting businesses, creating wealth, or just living your life - they are just the cherry on top of the Everest-sized ice cream sundae that is the Federal Government.

Federal taxes will weigh down every effort of the citizens of Hackertopia. Environmental impact statements and OSHA regulations will slow and hinder every business. And that's just the normal run of things. If certain elements in the government decided to not like Hackertopia, it would be far worse.

What would be needed would be a special economic zone, or the like, where existing federal regulations would not apply. And that is a highly dubious proposition, unless things get much worse.

Still and all, I could see how building a city like this would be for the good - it could at least be a place where most of the worst, localized excesses of democracy are limited. What Hackertopia most reminded me of is Precipice, a city in John Brunner's novel Shockwave Rider. It's a book well worth reading - and though the town in the novel is more of a libertarian utopia, it shares many characteristics with Devin's Hackertopia. But one of the key things that allowed Precipice to come into being is the big one, the giant earthquake that levels SF and is entirely beyond the capacity of the nation to recover from. A large swath of ruined California is effectively abandoned - a "paid avoidance zone" where the rule of the Federal government is light, because the cost of rebuilding the destroyed infrastructure is just too high. In this extra-legal zone, Precipice flourishes because it's economy and people are not warped by the heavy hand of increasingly deranged government.

While I haven't had a lot of time for writing in the last little while, I've been thinking about the wheres and whys of a reactionary experiment. Granted, we have some partial examples - Hong Kong before the takeover, Singapore, and so on. Chili under Pinochet.

It seems to me that part of the problem with the libertarian ideas that Aretae espouses - and which to a great extent I sympathise with - is that they don't take into account the monkeybrains aspect in regard to the politics. Economics - yes. But people are not comfortable professing loyalty to amorphous collectives operating for the common good. And certainly not to co-operative protection agencies and the like. The United States, and to a lesser extent other democracies, have gotten around this by creating a civic religion centered on constitution idolatry and the veneration of civic saints. This faith is failing now, and seems unlikely to recover, and certainly will not be replaced by un-coerced love for the bureaucratic state and its organs.

The idea of a monarch gives a human thing for people to latch on to, give their loyalty to, and to build community around. Providing you can get to the point where having a king seems like a good idea, and people have agreed that that particular guy is the one who should be king. A Moldbug-style neo-cameralist CEO probably wouldn't inspire that, unless it was Steve Jobs. To me, the idea of having a Calvin Coolidge sort of king - one who would not interfere in the economy, or in our lives, but would serve as a guarantor of order and prosperity; and at need a final arbiter of disputes - that would be best.

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It is a sad day

The color-coded terror alert level system has gone away. For years, perfidy proudly placed the current terror alert level prominently on the front page as a public service. Then we realized that it was all a crock of shit and canned it.

One last time, though, for old time's sake:

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Well, there it is

My father has impeccable timing. After moving every single thing that I own at least four times - from where it was to a box, the box to storage, storage to new house, box to its new home - Dad informs me that he needs help moving. I am so tired of picking things up and moving them that lifting my coffee mug to my mouth is aggravating. But, devoted son that I am, I will chip in for the big win, and move my Dad's crap, too this weekend.

The new place is slowly attaining a semblance of order. I have to say that shit-canning half your stuff makes the moving and unpacking process much easier. Having an office again is a real bonus too, and this week I get to put all my books in real, actual bookshelves!

I'm sure you will all be deeply interested to know that my neolithic herder diet is going pretty well. Last July, my pants were a verging on fatbody 44" waist. This last Black Friday, I stopped by the Eddie Bauer warehouse outlet store thingy in Columbus and (rather optimistically, I thought) picked a pair of 38" pants to try on. They were too big. I went back for a 36", and they were just right. Pardon my French, but holy mother of fuck, I just dropped eight full inches of waistline. I haven't been in a 36" since no one knew that Clinton liked getting BJs from pudgy chicks. And I still have another twenty pounds I want to lose. The Thanksgiving holiday was a minor setback, as far as the diet goes - what with all the stuffing, rolls, sugar cookies, pumpkin pie, und so weiter. But a few days of hardcore paleo should remove most of what I gained at the feast.

Aretae is suggesting a 100 push up challenge. I think this would dovetail nicely with the superslow that I've been doing. Aretae has a charming habit of answering questions that I haven't realized I needed to ask. The gym at my office sucks ass, really, and I don't want to keep spending money on something that sucks. I also don't want to spend money on a home gym, which would likely also suck, and be something I have to move in a couple years. What I need is a weight and equipment-less superslow workout scheme. The 100-pushup thing could be part of that.

What else is going on? There's been some interesting stuff on the internets. I can't remember what it was, but if you poke around I'm sure you'll find it.

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Well this is cool

[wik] Video no longer available, and sadly there's no context to even guess at what it once was.

[alsø wik] Is it proper to have a "wik" when there's no content before it?

[alsø alsø wik] Should this one be "alsø wik," and the one before be "wik?"

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Status Update: Buckethead

Well, I'm moved. Mostly. Still have some random crap to get out of the old place, but all the important stuff is in the new place, and all the furniture is where it is supposed to be. Lots and lots of unpacking left to do, of course, but the family is settling in in its new digs.

Cool thing about renting #1: it can be much cheaper. I just gave myself a $15000/year raise. Actually, more like a $21 k, because I'll actually keep all this money.

Cool thing about renting #2: other people fix things. This is a real time and aggravation saver.

And, I have about twice as much living space as in my previous mountain fortress, though the neighbors are much closer. Sigh. It about evens out.

The little girls do love the fact that they can now literally run in circles. I don't think they liked being forced to run from one end of the house to other and back.

After the unpacking is finished, I think I might actually start blogging again.

In the meantime, read Aretae, Foseti, Devin, Isegoria, Charleton, and Vox Day. Good stuff, there. I was particularly taken by Charleton's riff on Moldbug, here, and Foseti's review of "The Dark Side of the Left." Congrats, also, to Foseti on producing an heir.  Reactionaries need heirs.

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But my work is not done

I've ripped just about all the movies I have that have not been scratched to unusability by children; sat on, broken, or lost: were originally VHS or Tivo'd and burned to disc; are unsuitable because they're full-screen, not widescreen; or were lent out and never returned. The list of those movies below the fold:

24, season 1
28 Days Later
48 Hours
A Christmas Story
A Few Good Men
A Fish Called Wanda
A League of Their Own
A Perfect War
Abbot and Costello Meet the Mummy
Ace Ventura: Pet Detective
Adaptation
Addams Family
Addams Family Values
Air Force One
Airplane!
Amadeus
American Splendor
Arsenic and Old Lace
Avatar: The Last Airbender
Backyardigans
Back to the Future 2
Bambi
Barry Lyndon
Barton Fink
Batman
Batman Returns
Battlestar Galactica
Beetlejuice
Better Off Dead
Big Trouble in Little China
Bill and Ted’s Bogus Journey
Bill and Ted’s Excellent Adventure
Black Adder
Black Adder Goes Forth
Black Adder II
Black Adder the Third
Blade II
Bob the Builder
Bond: Casino Royale (original)
Bond: Diamonds Are Forever
Bond: Die Another Day
Bond: From Russia With Love
Bond: GoldenEye
Bond: Never Say Never Again
Bond: On Her Majesty’s Secret Service
Bond: Thunderball
Bond: Tomorrow Never Dies
Bond: You Only Live Twice
Boot Camp
Borat
Brazil
Bridget Jones
Bridget Jones 2
Caddyshack
Caine Mutiny
Casablanca
Casino Royale (new one)
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (original)
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (Johnny Depp)
Charlie’s Angels 2
Charlotte's Web
Chasing Amy
Chicken Run
Clerks
Coal Miner’s Daughter
Cyrano de Bergerac
Deep Cover
Demolition Man
Dennis Leary
Dirty Rotten Scoundrels
Disney Princess Stories
Doc Hollywood
Doctor Who (A whole season, don't know which one, haven't watched it.)
Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
Dora the Explorer
Down Periscope
Dr. Strangelove
Dragnet
Edward Scissorhands
El Mariachi
Elektra
Enter the Dragon
Eragon
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Evil Dead 2
Evolution
Farscape, season 1
Firefly
First Blood
Fisher King
Formula 51
From Dusk ‘Til Dawn
From the Earth to the Moon
Garfield
Garfield 2
Ghostbusters 2
Gun Shy
Half Baked
Hamlet
Hamlet
Happy Gilmore
Hard Hat Harry
Harold and Kumar Go to White Castle
Hellboy
Hellboy 2
Hulk
I, Robot
Idiocracy
Immortal Beloved
Inside 9/11
IQ
Ivanhoe
Jackass, the Movie
Jaws
Jerky Boys
Jewel of the Nile
Jimmy Neutron: Boy Genius
Johnny Mnemonic
Judge Dredd
Jurassic Park III
Kids in the Hall, Season 1
Kill Bill Vol.1
Kill Bill Vol.2
King Kong
Labyrinth
Lady and the Tramp
Lawrence of Arabia
Lemony Snicket: A Series of Unfortunate Events
Lethal Weapon 1
Lethal Weapon 2
Lethal Weapon 3
Lethal Weapon 4
Lewis Black
Liar, Liar
Lindbergh Declassified
Little Einsteins
Little Mermaid
Live Free or Die Hard
Lost Boys
Major League 2
Man on Fire
Mars Attacks
Midnight Clear
Midnight Run
Monty Python’s Flying Circus
More than a Game
Mother Night
Mouse Hunt
Much Ado About Nothing
My Fellow Americans
Mystery Men
Napoleon Dynamite
National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation
National Lampoon’s Eurotrip
National Lampoon's Vacation
Oceans 13
October Sky
Once Upon a Time in China 1
Once Upon a Time in China 2
Once Upon a Time in China 3
Othello
Pale Rider
Paper Moon
Patriot Games
Penguins of Madagascar: Happy King Julian Day
Penguins of Madagascar: I Was a Penguin Zombie
Penn and Teller Get Killed
Penn and Teller’s Cruel Tricks for Dear Friends
Phantoms
Plains, Trains and Automobiles
Point Break
Primer
Puppet Masters
Puppets Who Kill
Ransom
Real Genius
Remo Williams
Resident Evil: Apocalypse
Robocop
Robots
Romancing the Stone
Rome, HBO Series, Season 1
Romeo + Juliet
Romeo and Juliet
Rushmore
Sanjuro
Saving Private Ryan
Scooby-Doo
Scotland, PA
Secret of NIMH
Sesame Street Dinosaurs
Sesame Street: Follow that Bird
Seven Samurai
Short Circuit
Six String Samurai
Solaris
South Park, seasons 1-3
Speed Racer (tv show)
Speed Racer (movie)
Sphere
Spongebob SquarePants: To Love a Patty
Syriana
Take the Money and Run
Tango and Cash
Tequila Sunrise
Terminator 3
The Adventures of Buckaroo Banzai Across the Eighth Dimension
The African Queen
The Agony and the Ecstacy
The Big Sleep
The Court Jester
The Crow
The Desperate Hours (original)
The Desperate Hours (stupid remake)
The General
The Hudsucker Proxy
The Incredible Hulk
The Inspector General
The Jerk
The Long Kiss Goodnight
The New Adventures of Batman
The Pentagon Wars
The Princess Bride
The Prisoner of Zenda
The Producers
The Professional
The Right Stuff
The Rocketeer
The Secret of NIMH
The Shawshank Redemption
The Shining
The Three Musketeers
The Transporter
The Usual Suspects
The Whole Nine Yards
The Zero Effect
They Live
Things to Do in Denver when You’re Dead
This is Spinal Tap
Thomas the Tank Engine
Three Outlaw Samurai
Throne of Blood
Thunderheart
Time Bandits
To Have and to Have Not
Top Gun
Toys
Trading Places
Transformers
Transformers II
Twilight Zone the Movie
Twister
Uncle Buck
Underworld
Walk the Line
What Women Want
Wild at Heart
Zelig

I'll eventually get all of these from Netflix. Add these together with the movies from the last post, it's north of 600 discs.

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